May i share something personal with you? You guys are the first to know.
Last week during cell, i shared about how i need to pray for directions on whether i should say yes to pst daniel to extend my church office job till end June next year. (by right, it ends on the last day of Feb'09) The whole week, i couldn't sleep. I prayed but God never answered. I asked my parents and they said ok. My dad even said it's jus a small prob and asked me not to think too much. I asked my poly friends whom i'm close with and they dissuaded me. I asked my christian good friends and many tried to dissuade me as well. My mind was in a whirl. I was afraid that if i extend and i ever meet with problems at work and i will grouse a little to my peers and they might say "you shld have left when you could". I don't think i could bear that. I like my decision to be relying on people's support. And so, i continued praying and i asked someone i thought will give me a wise answer. The reply was "God gave you wisdom what." That didn't help much honestly.
Last night, i prayed again. I even tried to sit down and wait for God to reply me. Nothin happened. This morning, during staff intercession, Elder Peter Fok who was leading intercession asked the staff to sit down n just wait for God to speak to us.
God really spoke to me.
I saw visions. First i saw this verse from:
John 14:27
"27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Then i saw Scene 1:
I’m in a classroom wearing a pinafold and my hair style was just above the shoulders, with fringe. I look exactly like when I was in lower pri. I was raising my hand and waving frantically for the teacher to pick me but I don’t know why the teacher just refused to select me even when i was the last one left in my class. I continued to raise my hands and wave until I was nearly standing up. Ironically, I have no classmates but yet my teacher still does not pick me.
Scene 2:
I sat down after some time and my expression was one that was smiling away. I could see my teacher smiling too but I can’t see my teacher, I can only feel Him smiling because where my teacher was standing, it was too glaring. (I juz knew my teacher was GOD)
I’m in a classroom wearing a pinafold and my hair style was just above the shoulders, with fringe. I look exactly like when I was in lower pri. I was raising my hand and waving frantically for the teacher to pick me but I don’t know why the teacher just refused to select me even when i was the last one left in my class. I continued to raise my hands and wave until I was nearly standing up. Ironically, I have no classmates but yet my teacher still does not pick me.
Scene 2:
I sat down after some time and my expression was one that was smiling away. I could see my teacher smiling too but I can’t see my teacher, I can only feel Him smiling because where my teacher was standing, it was too glaring. (I juz knew my teacher was GOD)
I felt God speaking to me that I have still things to learn in here. He is still grooming me, still teaching me; that's why He doesn't want to pick me and let me leave. Although i may be the last one to leave but that doesn't mean i'll never catch up with my peers. God will give me peace in my decision and i know that my God won't shortchange me. Daniel prayed for me this morning that God's grace will be sufficient for me. I believe in it, in God.
God Really Will Speak To You ... juz as how He spoke to me...
God's love & mine,
Shepherd's Pie
Tsk Ben Neo extra la!
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